"I have nothing to wear!!"
Those famous words we've all uttered at one point in our lives, if not kajillions. You stand there at the closet, in some form of undress, staring, trying to figure out what you should put on for the day, hoping that something in that closet will magically make you something more than you feel like you are. Am I right?
But, of course, you are, in fact, most likely looking at any number of choices! Well, that's how it normally goes down in my closet.
As I stand there, just staring, maybe complaining a little, my sweet husband just loves to point out the truth . . . because he is just SO sweet (can you hear the sarcasm in my tone?), "you have plenty to wear!!! You just don't want to!"
So, there I stand, staring at my clothes, still feeling like I have nothing to wear, still not dressed, plus, now grumpy at him for calling me out! Whatever!
But, I guess, . . . . . hubby is right.
I have plenty of clothes hanging there in that closet and I just don't want to wear them. Somehow in my head I am able to believe that 'other' clothes will be better than the ones already there in front of me. Somehow in my brain, none of the clothes I already own are 'just right', and I won't 'feel' like the imminently cool person I would feel like if I had other clothes!
Come on, now! You know what I'm talking about, whether you are male or female, you know it!
"So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It’s your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it." Colossians 3:12-14 MSG
When I read this verse the other day, I totally pictured my closet! I saw the WHOLE story being played out in my mind, only it was God in the role of hubby, and He was much nicer in how he pointed out the truth to me. He said:
"I have picked you for this life and provided the most beautiful and fitting outfits for you to wear to play your part. I picked you because I love you, and that in and of itself makes you gorgeous. But, I think that the clothes that I have purchased for you - through great cost to myself, by the way - will make you radiant! You will shine! I am giving them to you. As a gift. You won't need any other clothes, I'm sure of it. But, I will let you choose to wear these clothes or not. But, there is one especially perfect piece that I really think you should never be without. It's love. That one is will be so very beautiful on you and so versatile!"
There are so many things in this life that make me question what I am supposed to be doing; that make me search for other 'clothes', other answers, others ways of being. Hurt, hatred, anger, confusion, self-pity, selfishness, doubt, fear, apathy. psh! I tried on all of those beauties just this morning before breakfast (thank you, very much, Facebook!) The past month has left me feeling as though I really didn't have anything to wear: cold, vulnerable, sad. But, life does that. And, some days, I have dressed myself wrong, or gone shopping for items that weren't already given to me and realized they really didn't fit well. They made me ugly. They made me insecure.
I have had to choose to dress myself in the wardrobe that my Good Father already provided for me. I have had to choose compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, & discipline. I have had to choose to be even-tempered, or content with second place (ugh!!! I had to try that one a few times before I made myself walk out the door with it!). And, can I be quite honest when I tell you that I haven't worn all of the garments in my closet in the last month! I make up excuses that quickly forgiving an offense and forgiving quickly don't fit the season, but, I know that all of His garments fit in all seasons. Again, it's my choice.
And LOVE. How beautiful would we all be if we remembered every day to dress up in it? How absolutely stunning would humanity be if we chose to wear LOVE, every day, every season, and every event???
Excuse me while I go stand in my closet some more.